Ok, here is what I can gather so far;
I can tell you see yourself as a perfectionist and your experiencing symptoms of depression because you feel as if you’re not as successful as you could be.
The first thing you must understand is you’re an over perfectionist for your age and your brain hasn’t funny developed yet and it’s highly understandable your game doesn’t meet the expectations of an adult with tones of game development experience. Understand that 99.75% of people your age wouldn’t know how to create their own computer game of the most basic complexity. So I think your did awesome job from what I’ve seen herd so far.
Your self-esteem seems quite low; you have no faith in yourself or anything you do.
This is usually caused by depression; I’ve devised some activities which will hopefully help restore at least some of your self-esteem.
I don’t know anything personal about yourself, so it makes things pretty hard and I can only work with what you told us on the forums. If you have disagree with any of my statements feel free to challenge them.
Activities
Here are some activities I want you to complete; (try not to involve any form of technology) If you feel comfortable, post your answer to these questions.
- Step back and think about what has really made you feel very happy and joyful in the past (hanging out with friends, maybe there is a hobby you really enjoy, maybe there is some awesome music you like to mellow out or dance to).
- Try to find a role-model that you really like. While thinking about this, think about things that make them really awesome. Let’s say you’re really into wrestling and your idol was John Cena. Maybe his strength is awesome, in that case you could go to the gym or workout at home and this should help. Working out really helps get your mind off everything depressing you, I highly recommend it. You need a motivator and that could be a role-model. It doesn’t have to be someone famous; it could be a teacher or a friend.
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Goal Setting
- Keep thinking about those previous life experience that made you feel happy, do whatever you can, this should help you step away from everything that’s depressing you.
- Find a role-model, think about what makes them awesome that you’d like to do and then do it.
Once you’ve answered some of my questions I can write you some more goals.
Sure a lot of the stuff I’ve written may seem quite simple, but you’d be amazed how you may have overlooked it. Plus it all helps me understand the situation you’re in and I may be able to better help you.
I have a few more questions;
chrisl121212 wrote:Ughh, I hate clothes shopping, but I'm gonna be forced to do it soon since school's starting up already.
I won't be able to now, but when school starts...
Ah yeah, I don’t mean to get too personal but.
Do you find that you look around the store for clothes and you look upon everything so negatively you think everything looks bad and you don’t like anything and your parents get frustrated and just start choosing things on your behalf?
Or would you be the kind of person who just steps back and lets you parents do most of the shopping (maybe because your embarrassed), like do you parents choose what kind of underwear you wear whether it be Briefs, Boxer-Briefs/Trunks or Boxers or would you take over and choose.
I know a majority of kids just follow there parents when they should be keeping themselves unique (which helps them build self-esteem). I know this sounds gay but everyone should be able to go clothes shopping with their mates including underwear shopping without feeling embarrassed or wrongly judged, but it seems most of us were brought up quite the opposite.
For example; homosexuals predominantly shop with there boyfriends’ straight mates considered it a gay act. This is childish and socially unacceptable. Just because I like shopping for clothes enough to shop with mates doesn’t mean I’m a homosexual. It’s a way to express myself around others and that is what I think you need.
I’m around clothing stores all the time and it sickens me that parents are taking over their children’s willingness to express themselves. Once I seen a 16 year-old male teenager really upset with mum, I could tell he was interested in punk wear but his mum wouldn’t let him express himself which destroys his self-esteem.
It may seem you’re not interested in clothes shopping, but I really think it’s a way of realizing who you are, what you’re interested in and even though it might be considered gay it would be handy to do this around unbiased mates rather than your parents. You need to separate yourself from your parents a little more. They could be making too many decisions for you.
If this is the case you probably need to talk to your parents and tell them you feel this way. Beware if you have really stubborn biased parents your may get into a fight. Even if you’re right they’ll make sure there biased view gets its way. In this case you need to tell them to get fucked and just do your own thing, but the more intelligent way is to see counselors’ views, they’ll usually stick by your side and explain to your parents what you really need. This is all pretty overwhelming particularly for someone who may not be very outgoing but you must take risks your not comfortable with to get on with life.
It would be great if I could just say get over it, bit it obviously isn’t as simple as that particularly when your so stubborn. Being stubborn is one of the hardest things to overcome but I see you want to get over anything, so keep that goal in mind while you read through everything we have written.
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Hell, If I was you and had my knowledge.
I would eat or smoke some weed, it really relaxes you, takes everything off your mind and lets you have a goodtime.
But I don’t think using ‘light drugs’ would be smart if you’re depressed.
Sure it’ll help but you might gain a mental dependence on it and you could become addicted.
I do know you cannot physically be addicted or overdose. But using too much has greater health-risks and you don’t want to lose self-being wanting to be stoned all your life. --- But the same would happen with alcohol too.
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chrisl121212 wrote:I'm already a negative, tired, grumpy as f*** zombie.
I did some more thinking on the issue and if you think its serious enough you can talk about it with a doctor or psychiatrist and tell them if they think the medication will turn you into a zombie. Then they’ll realize you’re concerned about this and will spend more time trying to find the right anti-depressant for you. Depending on the user there are some anti-depressants that are better than others.
But from my experience anti-depressants usually make little or no difference and send you to an even more confused state. You shouldn’t need any medication to help you through your difficult time. (I cannot say for sure, because I've never been on them, but I have known some using them)
I’ll leave at this for now; since I don’t fully understand your situation I’m going everywhere. Read everything carefully, I think it’ll help!