Well guys, another target specs dump. Here's ANOTHER list of specs I'm trying to go for now. Things aren't working out for me (When have they ever?), most likely I'll be stuck right were I am for ANOTHER 2 dam years or more. Anyway, I'm now going to shoot for, but will most likely fail at getting:
AMD FX 6350 6 core processor at 3.9Ghz
Gigabyte AM3+ AMD DDR3 1333 760G HDMI USB 3.0 Micro ATX Motherboard
Gigabyte GeForce GT 630 2GB DDR3 PCI Express 2.0 Video card
Kingston Value RAM 4GB 1333MHz PC3-10600 DDR3 Non-ECC CL9 DIMM SR x8 Desktop Memory (Looks like cheap memory from 2004, identical to the one in my GX280)
Antec VP-450 450 Watt Energy Star Certified Power Supply (Never heard of this company but heard positive crap about them)
The rest doesn't matter. I blew the money I had ($41) on some nice Micro ATX case with a fan in the front and USB 2.0 and 3.0. (This case will most likely sit empty for years)
This build is a mess, but if I can build it, I will be freakin happy. So far the place I applied for a job for hasn't contacted me yet (Today is only day 3 though)
I'll most likely not see you guys in a "new" game until GTA 7 comes out. Not trying to be negative all the time but I can't help it. I have nothing positive to show.
My YouTube channel is a joke, I've never gotten it to where I've always wanted it to be, and never had the motivation or technological power to. It's boring, junk, not anything I've ever wanted to make for it. I'm out of ideas what to do to make money, this has been a joke since I even wanted any of this in 2008. Do any of you have any ideas? Or at least any ideas as to how I can freaking smile once in a while and enjoy anything? I wasn't always this negative, and this whole computer thing isn't the entire reason I have permeate dark circles around my eyes and my eyes themselves look vainy and tired and why I'm growing more and more serious and tense. I've had a lot of bad things happen in my life, mostly at a young age.
Sorry for this.
Update:
You know what? I think I'm going to try as hard as I can to stay positive and motivate myself. YTP does make me laugh. I'm going to design a silly animation video of random clips on my current specs. I'm going low on detail as possible. The goal is accuracy on how I model models, and how the animation moves. Visuals aren't a concern in this round. Well here I go, I am expecting to finish a 4 minute video in a few weeks. Let's give it a 3 week goal from this Monday.

This is where I die.